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So yesterday (today's the 18th) I worked on my React project. I'm still struggling to understand but I went ahead and asked chatgpt questions every 5 seconds so it could explain the code from the tutorial and what it does. I was working on trying to make a to do list as my first project. (I know generic but I don't mind) I kept getting hung up on the design aspect of it but decided it was best to give up for now, try learning the code first, and just copy a design off the internet as I'm not posting it anywhere.
I ended up finally cleaning my floors the other day, so I even have clean floor in the bedroom which is crazy to see. I've also been doing dishes lately and cooking dinners. My case worker told me about this supplement I could test for my adhd called guarana, and its working pretty good: it could also me dropping my guanfacine to 1 pill.
That evening I spent doom scrolling which I know I shouldn't. Lately seeing everything that's going on gets me so stressed I need to remember I can't control it and I should just focus on my little family. I got so stressed over not being able to get a job either. Trying to become a web dev is hard when all you see is layoffs in the tech industry. So I looked for an everyday job on indeed but there is literally nothing in this small town that fits my hours. Then I realized, do I even want to work? I can't hold any jobs down without my mental health tanking. So I realized I need to stop feeling guilty and realize what I can do. I can focus on housekeeping and taking care of my family. I also realized we can make it with just my husband's income, I just need to stop spending it all on things I don't need. I realized I can focus on creating experiences instead, whether its escaping to videogames, or spending time playing with my kids or cats. Those things are more important than materialism. I also need to stop comparing myself to everyone else's "perfect" life on social media. Idk, I feel like it was good insight.
I ended up finally cleaning my floors the other day, so I even have clean floor in the bedroom which is crazy to see. I've also been doing dishes lately and cooking dinners. My case worker told me about this supplement I could test for my adhd called guarana, and its working pretty good: it could also me dropping my guanfacine to 1 pill.
That evening I spent doom scrolling which I know I shouldn't. Lately seeing everything that's going on gets me so stressed I need to remember I can't control it and I should just focus on my little family. I got so stressed over not being able to get a job either. Trying to become a web dev is hard when all you see is layoffs in the tech industry. So I looked for an everyday job on indeed but there is literally nothing in this small town that fits my hours. Then I realized, do I even want to work? I can't hold any jobs down without my mental health tanking. So I realized I need to stop feeling guilty and realize what I can do. I can focus on housekeeping and taking care of my family. I also realized we can make it with just my husband's income, I just need to stop spending it all on things I don't need. I realized I can focus on creating experiences instead, whether its escaping to videogames, or spending time playing with my kids or cats. Those things are more important than materialism. I also need to stop comparing myself to everyone else's "perfect" life on social media. Idk, I feel like it was good insight.
